A dream

me: hai, how are you?

somebody: fine, u?

me: fine too...haven't heard u for a long time. where were u?

somebody: i was here. u ignored me. that's why u didn't hear me.

me: i didn't ignore u. how can i ignore u? even if i tried, i couldn't ignore u.

somebody: hmmm...u did. u did ignore me. u shut ur ears. u didn't listen to me.

me: i did not shut my ears. how can i do that? tell me, how can i? u are always with me. u are present everywhere i go. how can i possibly not listen to u.

somebody: well u managed it. i don't know how. but u did. i was with u all the time. i kept on talking to u. but u just weren't listening. u just managed to shut me out completely.

me: what are u saying? when i didn't hear ur voice for such a long time, i thought u had left me. i thought that i was alone.

somebody: no way...i could never leave u. i will never leave u. and believe me when i say i did not leave u.

me: then how come i didn't hear u for so long? how do u explain that?

somebody: that i think its because u purposefully didn't listen to me.

me: NO...that's not true. that's not possible. i cannot not listen to u. u have been my voice all through my life. u have been my music. u have been my guiding spirit. u r there permanently in my head. how can i not hear or listen to u!!!

somebody: now now...don't cry. i wasn't accusing u of anything. i just thought...since u r always spending time with him, and since he is such a nice person, and since u like him a lot...u know what? i think that's why u couldn't here me. because u were listening to him. u somehow...maybe unconsciously...blocked out my voice...

me: u mean to say that i cannot hear u when i talk to him?

somebody: yes. i think that's the reason.

me: oh my god. that would mean...that...that he has become really important for me.

somebody: yes, that would be the indication.

me: which means...u have to...u have to leave.

somebody: yes, i guess its time for me to leave. leave permanently. in fact i think this will be our last conversation.

me: no u cannot leave. i won't let u go. u cannot leave me...please, don't go...

somebody: u cannot do anything about this, dear. its not in ur hands. or even mine. i have to go. because u have found him. the one who is to be part of the rest of ur life. wasn't that the condition? that i help u through, till u find the right person?
its going to be fine. don't worry. he is very nice. and u'll get along well with him. and he likes u too.

me: no, he does not like me. we are just...friends. really we are just friends.

somebody: yes i know. he is ur friend. and he will always be ur friend. all through ur life. he will be there to help u, to care for u, to scold u, to do everything that i have done for u. u'll be happy.

me: but i don't want u to leave. can't u stay?

somebody: no i cannot. see, u have no need for me. u have him. its time for me to leave. bye. take care. and trust him.